Friday, June 11, 2010

All to Jesus I Surrender

Four months have passed. It is hard for me to believe that exactly four months ago, a few hours after giving birth, we were leaving the hospital, without our baby, headed straight to the funeral home to plan her memorial. The pain of loosing our baby daughter is still so real, and still hurts so bad. Thankfully, we have had a lot of healing over the last four months. While our hearts are still breaking for our loss, we are able to rejoice more and more in Caroline's gain! As we visited her tiny grave today as a family, Rhett and I talked about details of her birth and death, and how at times, it still does not seem real. As we walked away from her grave with our boys, I felt the sadness of not having her in my arms, but thankfully I was reminded of the joy I have in our wonderful boys and what a blessing they are!! I am learning to truly surrender it all to Jesus, because that is the ONLY way I can make it in this world without my precious little girl.

I LOVE this sweet hymn and it has been on my mind a lot lately. I think it is one of God's gentle reminders to let Him take my burdens and worries. Praying you can surrender your "problems" and let Jesus carry you!

**Stop my play list at the bottom if you want to hear the hymn