Tuesday, March 16, 2010

"Because He Lives"

This hymn is one of my all time favorites. I absolutely love the words, and the promises in the song! Rhett and I chose this song to be sung at the closing of Caroline's memorial because we know we can face the "tomorrow's" with our Savior guiding us. He never promised it would always be easy, but that He would be right by our side, leading and guiding us!

So, when this song was sung Sunday night at church, I had mixed emotions. I really wanted to stand there in the sanctuary and sing the words like I always have, but I COULD NOT! I had not thought about how it would feel to hear one of the songs from her memorial....and let me just tell you it was tough. The sweet words of this hymn are so very true and dear to my heart, but it brought back SO many emotions! This past weekend was hard for me, because it marked one month since Caroline was buried. I just sort of had a hard time all weekend. Thankfully, I had a couple of sweet friends that sent me really sweet messages on Friday and Saturday. It is a blessing to still have prayers for comfort and peace being prayed on our behalf! Those friends were once again a simple reminder of how God has blessed us, and is providing for me! When they started playing this song in our dimly lit sanctuary, I could not stop my tears. My sweet husband put his arms around me and just held me....he truly knows how tough it is, and he truly feels my pain. I thank God for giving me such an amazing husband!! The selfish human part of me wanted to RUN out of there and find somewhere to just cry and be sad. But, God quickly reminded me that:

"Because He lives, I can face tomorrow,
Because He lives, all fear is gone,
Because I know He holds the future,
And life is worth the living,
Just because He lives".

Every day is hard. There will never be a day that I do not think about our precious baby Caroline. I miss her, and I ALWAYS will. But, I have a hope, a peace, a future, ....because my Saviour lives, and He has taken away all my fears! My life is so full and blessed, and absolutely worth living, because HE LIVES! I thank God for the simple ways He is constantly reminding me that in the midst of our sorrow and sadness; He loves me, and has a plan for our family!

I am amazed at how many people are reading our blog!!! In less than 72 hours, we have had almost 300 people log onto this site. I am overjoyed by the many comments/emails/notes we have received about how Caroloine's life is blessing others. I pray for any one reading this that is struggling with anything right now. I hope that you can find the strength and courage to face tomorrow, because God does live, He does care about you, and He has a great and mighty plan for your life!

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit". Psalm 34:18

4 comments:

  1. We sang that song at Janie Beth's celebration of life, as well as some other hymns. It definitely adds a new meaning when we sing them in church now. I sang the chorus of "Because He Lives" alot in the final weeks of carrying Janie Beth, and I continue to do so.

    (((Hugs)))

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  2. ....still lifting your family up in prayer.

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  3. I love that song too, Amanda. You are all always in our prayers!

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  4. I am still praying for you and your wonderful family. Your blogs are helping me to rehash Annika's life. Thanking Him for both of our daughters!

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